once you held a place for me,
but now that I've left you went and gave up my seat,
don't expect me to share your visions of life,
I'll take the my chances somewhere else
the place I call home isn't there anymore,
with boards on the windows and locks on the door,
so pick up the pieces that never once fit,
let this be the end of it
give me the green light to get on with my life,
pick up the pieces then roll the fucking dice
I live in exile of you, your key no longer fits,
because the locks on my life are new

Now that was a party that was not meant to be left.  I'm sorry Sigma Chi, the but Ultimate team party RULED.  Congrats to all the boys that got infishiated yesterday: Dennis-Trabeck; Radin-Ramsey; Maclyn-Boont; Jessie-Dobe; Ryan-Tucker; Jeremy-samadi. Hooray for more people dancing on the pool table and everyone being flat out wasted.  How cool is this: the fish had to drink beer out of their discs the whole night....now that's commitment.

Gracias to the Veggies who drove us all back home (thanks quatro!). 

Jenan (shotty) = the coolest for not only being my dance buddy, but helping me take care of Trabeck and Clubs, get them back to my apartment, and staying up to make sure they didnt die.  You rock my socks kid!  

Evelyn= mighty cool as well for not being angry that we brought passed out guys home and even helping us take care of them.  We missed you! 

Jake Chang!!! (bamboo) = super duper cool for adopting me as his little sis, making ppl stop trying to get me to do the ice luge, and facebooking me back!

thank god erin came home!  we rolled to fiesta numero uno at like 10 somethin and it was a huge success.  I swear it was going to be a chill little party, but oh how i was wrong.  what probably was intended to be a smaller apartment party off town center dr. turned into a rager.   what did i like best, you ask?  that would be the cows.  you guys had cow blown up cow outfits!  i gotta say, i want to do that next year!  not really, this whole pocahantas thing is really workin out for me.  i think this might have to be the new tradition.  thanks to evey, erin, and paul for all going disney themed with me.  paul those tights were way hot! hehe

i cant tell if your laughing, between each smile theres a tear in your eye
theres a train leaving town in an hour its not waiting for you and neither am i

'swing for the fences son' they must have told you once that was a conversation you took nothing from so raise your glass now celebrate exactly what youve done youve just put off another year of knowing where your from you can catch up with yourself if you run....

i cant tell if your laughing, between each smile theres a tear in your eye
theres a train leaving town in an hour its not waiting for you and neither am i

is this the life that you lead, or the life thats lead for you?
will you take the road thats been laid out before you?
will we cross paths somewhere else tonight?
somewhere else tonight....

paper wings--rise against

~utterly confused

Finally, the stress level has calmed down.  Thank god for last night and today.  Dying splat's hair green, watching evelyn expertly make my costume out of an oversized skirt from goodwill, eating my favorite cookies of all time (thanks to erin),  getting 10 hours of good, solid sleep,  a free luncheon at work, and most importantly GETTING TO GO TO DISC for the first time in weeks.  I think this is going to make for a great weekend!

the atlantic was born today and i'll tell you how:
the clouds above opened up and let it out.

i was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
when the water filled every hole.
and thousands upon thousands made an ocean,
making islands where no island should go.
oh no.

those people were overjoyed; they took to their boats.
i thought it less like a lake and more like a moat.
the rhythm of my footsteps crossing flood lands to your door have been silenced forever more.
the distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
it seems farther than ever before
oh no.

i need you so much closer

I'm being tested.  I have to be.  and the culmination lies here:

   Ricky i'm so sorry.  After 8 years, rest assured you wont be forgotten, you're always with me.  RIP 10/24/04

there is no way to to compete with freshmen in white shirts and little shorts in the rain.... absolutely no way

o wretched wretched day.   damn whoever hit my car and didnt leave a note.  meh, i guess i dont know anyone who has ever left a note... but damn them anyway!